Let me start by giving you a brief history.
I’m a 34 year old female living in the US. I am an employee of a small finance company. I don’t hate my job. Just dreaming of more. I have spent many years going above and beyond in my office. I find my job a challenge and have the opportunity to learn new skills.
I would be happy growing the business, expanding, restructuring. Making more money. Period. If the company grows, we all make more money, and help more clients.
My boss only recently became a partner in the business. Maybe within the last 4 years. She hired me in 1999. I have worked with the company for a total of 12 years. I left for a bit in between. She comes to me as a sounding board for ideas about the business, suggestions, advice, and collaboration. The company has paid for me to take extra training outside of my normal duties to become more knowledgeable about marketing, business writing, and microsoft programs.
The problem. She’s a terrible manager. Her employees don’t respect her, roll their eyes when her back is turned, talk sh!t about her when she’s gone. She is passive aggressive, micromanages, doesn’t trust her employees to do their job, doesn’t address poor behavior, permits employees to slack off constantly, and above all seems to have no idea how address these issues.
“Not everyone is like you and me.” She’ll say. “What can I do?” Of course this is to me in private.
I know that I’m the #3 of the business. President (Retired about 2 years ago), Vice President (My “manager’), me, and 5 more employees.
The company was founded in 1934. It’s not going anywhere. But that’s it’s downfall as well. It’s not going anywhere. There’s no future for me. I talked with her about growing the business. Adding an employee or two (in the future). Utilizing new strategies and programs to increase revenue. She has no drive to grow the company.
So I thought, okay, I need to step back. I’m just an employee. I’m not a partner. Heck, I’m not even a ‘manager’. I’m an employee. Period. Thinking there must be more to it. She has a lot on her plate, running a company, “managing” employees, micromanaging everyone, triple checking everything. It’s a lot of work. Now is not the time.
So here’s the kicker. Nine months ago she started an LLC on the side. The only reason I know this is because there was a note on her desk (like two weeks ago) reminding her to order checks for XYZ, LLC. Since it’s literally none of my business(es) I didn’t ask about it. But I did research with the state about XYZ, LLC. Found out it’s been open for 9 months and run out of her home. Since she’s formed an LLC and is ordering checks, there’s business transactions happening. She’s not the type to spend money on something frivolously.
It’s just made me lose hope that her energy will be spent growing the current profitable business (thus creating a future for me).
So now.. what should I do?
A) Stay with a secure job making roughly $21 hr (with bonuses) and no future?
B) Get a new job? <– scary.
C) Start a business? <— Can’t decide what I want to do. (But this is what I WANT to do.)
D) Go to school PT to get a “formal education”?
Thanks everyone for reading. I look forward to your comments.