Out of school, I started studying for a professional course. It was boring, so I taught myself programming and started selling small online software. Things went well, and I got myself earning ~ $6k a month. I quit studies, moved to a new city, and started working on a startup idea.
My current state, after 6 months of moving: I turned 22. I make decent money from the side-software business – same 6k. The startup is doing so-so. I am getting some customers, but nothing important – much smaller than my side-software business. Work isn’t much. I am a reserved person. I have never been to college. I have no friends. None. I am living in a city where I know no one. I am living and working alone, at home. This is getting very hard for me. I am probably losing interest in the startup too. When I feel good, I can work; when I am depressed, I feel like quitting everything. I don’t know what to do. The city isn’t very metropolitan, so there aren’t really groups or meetups I can go to. Sometimes, I even consider dropping everything and working for someone, just to know what it’s like to be among people again.
Some would think of this as a deam life – freedom, work-from-home, decent money. The same is hell for me. I envy those with jobs and friends. The grass is always greener on the other side.