On the surface it looks like I have my shit together — semi successful business, past startup success, business education and connections from one of the top accelerators in the world, lots of editorial mentions, decent size following … and so on and so forth.
But, it is as I described — on the surface.
Often times you’ll read someone’s story of how they were dead broke and eventually rose from the ashes to success. What isn’t that common is to read someone’s story before their recovery.
The former is motivational, the latter is reality.
This is my reality.
A couple of days ago I woke up in the morning to see an email from my wife. It’s was strange because she was asleep when I came to bed and appeared to have woken up the same time I did.
Apparently she had awoken in the middle of the night and couldn’t get back to sleep. Her mind was racing, so she decided to work on our financials (aka budget).
It wasn’t good. We were (and are) broke.
This wasn’t a surprise to either of us, we knew things were tight. While I have multiple ways of bringing in money, none of them are producing much of anything at the moment.
What triggered her sudden concern? It was email I had received the day before from the organizer of an event I recently spoke at deciding they weren’t going to pay me.
That was the finally straw for my wife.
One of my biggest fears in life is not being able to do the things I enjoy doing (at least professionally).
It sounds petty, but it’s the truth. Working at a low-risk job with a predictable income until the age of retirement sounds like hell on earth to me.
But, as a Father, with a wife that stays home to raise our children, this is the reality I face.
Life as a founder and life with a founder has its extremes. One day you’re making a great income, putting money into savings and enjoying the fruits of life. The next thing you know, nothing is coming in, you’ve dried up your savings and you’re back at square one.
It’s a lot to handle, especially for someone like my wife who isn’t built to endure it.
While people continue to read my blog posts and ask me for advice, I want to tell them that it’s important to remember that everything isn’t always how it seems. Despite my outwardly appearance, I haven’t “made it”. Not even close.