I started a company with a lot of promise almost a year ago. I was gainfully employed, and we were all on the same page. We gained more clients, and I left my full-time job. We had our whale.
And then, we started to make other ‘divisions’ of our company, partnering with another in order to gain clients in certain industries, and I feel like the entire root of what we were doing is lost. And I’m getting left behind.
We have an amazing design division – I rock as a creative director, but lately it’s all been lost in our new additions just saying to “make things pretty.”
“Make it pretty.”
None of our clients have paid us, and meanwhile I am the only one who isn’t independently wealthy. It doesn’t affect them. Meanwhile, I am becoming stressed, anxious, depressed, and feeling totally alone. I have cashed in all of my savings, my house is a mess, my partner has been as supportive as he can be but he doesn’t understand why I am allowing others to get rich/stay rich while I do this. I am supposed to gain more business, but the pressure has ruined my self-esteem and I have lost so much hair (actual large bald spots), that I don’t feel attractive anymore. A woman coming into a finance environment wanting to gain clients should look put together. Not like me.
I don’t know how to get out of this cycle. I am so overwhelmed.