The only way I can stop thinking about my startup and sleep at night is to get high.

Try to get laid instead. It’s much better on the long term :o)

and… the problem with this is>>>…..??….???

Yeah. That was the first three years of my company. The stress and anxiety were unbearable, followed me everywhere. There was no peace. No one understood. Smoking was the only way to get my head out of the forest to see the trees. It was the only way I could step back, relax, reflect, and be myself. After three years I was able to slow down my use — my company kept growing rapidly, but I was managing the growth better and started getting some life balance. I didn’t have to lean on substances, now 30 years old and 5.5 years in, I hardly smoke anymore. But I couldn’t have built my successful enterprise otherwise… No regrets. Just get it done.